It’s 5.30am and it really hurts to breathe now. My mouth is so so swollen. I’m in such pain even when I drink water! On the plus side me and Pedro have been going out 9 months today :) ….but I don’t get to see him :(

Woke up this morning to find I have caught mums throat and chest infection. It really hurts to breathe :’( I am glad my last meal was so filling because I can’t eat anything solid now. I went out to the french horn yesterday for my parents wedding anniversary and had an amazing steak with peppercorn butter, the most amazing chips and green beans and some like posh onion which was a bit like red cabbage because it was quite sour. then I had lemon tart with raspberries and ice cream. I think that was a pretty good last meal haha. I am going to the docs at 4 so in the mean time I am going to watch harry potter starting from the 1st film with a cup of tea because harry potter always makes me feel better :)

I am trying yet again to come up with a grand idea for my niche guide to britain project but I just can’t seem to come up with a good idea that I can roll with. I have pages and pages of spider diagrams with ideas down but none of them I am happy with to the point where I think, yeah thats great I am going to do that! I am really panicing about it to be honest and it makes me want to cry. I think it may be because my initial idea that I rolled with I was really happy with it and they said it was a bad idea and now I am over thinking I know I am, but I just want to find an idea that is niche enough and british enough that I can actually do please. Also I am trying to ignore the fact that my tonsils are hurting. I refuse to be ill again, not now :(